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  He tasted of coffee and cognac. Rich, deep, thrilling. She couldn’t get enough of the feel of his mouth against hers. She was sixteen again and on fire for the only man she had ever loved.

  CHAPTER SEVEN

  THEY LEFT a trail of clothing from the foyer through the sitting room to the bedroom. By the time they fell together onto the bed, he was naked and she wore only ivory lace panties and red heels. She had never felt more powerful or sensual in her life.

  His body was as familiar to her as her own. The muscular shoulders, the scar on his back from a diving accident, the smell of his skin. She would know him in the dark.

  This was Paris. Paris wiped the slate clean if only for the night. While they were in that room, entwined together on that bed, they could be whoever they wanted to be.

  No barriers. No boundaries. No limits. The warmth of cognac against her nipple…the moist heat of his tongue as he licked his way down her body…the raw male power that made her scream her pleasure in a way she never had before.

  Anything was possible when there was no tomorrow.

  They didn’t talk. Words were dangerous. Words could turn on you when you least expected it. They let their bodies say all those things they had kept hidden from each other for far too long.

  The chemistry between them was undeniable. It had been from the beginning. But tonight, on that wide soft bed in Paris, their chemistry was touched by magic and the combination brought her to tears.

  She turned her head away so he wouldn’t see but he knew instantly.

  “You’re crying,” he said, holding her close. “I didn’t—”

  She snuggled even closer. “You were wonderful. This was—” She searched for words to describe the way she was feeling, but they didn’t exist in English or French or any other language.

  “I know.” He brushed his lips against her forehead. “For me too.”

  They had been careful this time. There would be no surprises nine months later to ruin a perfectly happy divorce.

  Not that they talked about the divorce. By some unspoken agreement the divorce was off-limits tonight. They would do whatever it took to keep the fragile magic bubble of happiness aloft as long as they could.

  They made love. They ate room-service croissants and washed them down with brandy and coffee. They made love again and then congratulated each other for proving you didn’t have to be twenty-two to sizzle.

  “Show me the portrait,” he said as he handed her the last croissant.

  “You’ll see it at the wedding.”

  “How about a sneak peek.”

  “Maybe later.”

  “Come on,” he said. “I’d really like to see it.”

  He almost backed off when he saw the uncertain look in her eyes, but then she swung her legs off the bed and motioned for him to follow her into the foyer.

  He watched as she carefully unwrapped the painting from innumerable protective layers of paper and protective backing.

  “The TSA got a preview at the airport,” she said as she peeled away the last layer. “Raul and Melinda liked it but Sean and Paulie said it lacked nuance.”

  He laughed out loud and she smiled.

  “I hope Alexis likes it. I didn’t want to do one of those stiff and formal portraits. I tried to capture who we are—well, who we were.” She turned it around to face him and the room fell silent.

  She had painted their daughters on the back porch. Somehow she had caught them at an imaginary point between the girls they used to be and the women they were becoming. They were achingly lovely, his daughters, and ready to fly off into lives of their own. The way they leaned forward. The look in their eyes. Young women on the verge of their futures.

  She had painted him into the upper right hand corner of the composition, watching over his daughters but no longer a part of their daily lives. She had chosen to paint herself as a reflection in the French doors behind the girls, a distracted but watchful presence with her easel and paints.

  There was a bittersweet edge to the painting that he hadn’t noticed before in her work. She had captured a family about to spin off into separate orbits. Alexis and Gabe would build a family of their own and one day soon Taylor and Shannon would follow suit. In a perfect world that would have marked the start of the second chapter in their married life, a renewal of all the early promises.

  Instead they were standing on the brink of divorce.

  How the hell could he have lived with her for so long, shared a bed and a life, and not come close to recognizing the depth of her talent? He had known she was good, but nothing had prepared him for this.

  He felt he had been walking around blindfolded. He knew about the courses she had taken, the workshops, the day care she had bartered for art lessons, the careful management of their family budget so she could buy supplies. He knew it all. He had been there every step of the way. So why hadn’t he been able to make the leap with her from passing interest to consuming passion? Why hadn’t he seen her as the gifted artist she was and not just his wife?

  “Say something, Ryan.”

  He was completely captured by the painting and the future unfolding for her. “Once that magazine article comes out, you’re going to be on your way.”

  “You might be partial to the subject matter.”

  “This is the best thing you’ve ever done.”

  “Look at our girls. You couldn’t possibly paint a bad portrait of them.”

  “Don’t do that, Kate. This is great work. Admit it.”

  She hesitated then a huge smile spread across her face. “You’re right,” she said, tilting her head to one side as she inspected her work. “This is pretty damn good.”

  “That magazine article might change your life.”

  “We’ll see. You never really know which way these things are going to go.”

  A thousand different emotions played across her familiar and beautiful face. He saw their history in her eyes. What he didn’t see was their future.

  “I was wrong.”

  She continued to look at him but said nothing.

  “I expected you to jump when I got the job offer in Boston.”

  “So did I,” she admitted. “I always said painting was portable. I just didn’t know that I wasn’t.”

  “We still could have made it work,” he said. “I never gave us the chance.”

  She turned her head away and he couldn’t tell if she was angry, sad, or had simply stopped hearing him a long time ago.

  “You know what?” she said finally. “I probably wouldn’t have listened. My contacts were all in New York. Everyone I knew, everyone I cared about. You might as well have asked me to move to Mars.”

  “I didn’t ask,” he said. “I announced.”

  She shot him a look. “Yeah, you kinda did just announce it.”

  But they both knew the problem went far deeper than that. They had drifted apart long before the Boston job offer. Work, kids, everyday life. Sometimes he thought they had scheduled themselves right out of their marriage.

  But never out of love. For the first time in years, he finally understood that the love not only remained, it had flourished.

  Now all he had to do was find a way to make her see that too.

  * * *

  TOWARD DAYBREAK it started to rain.

  They had barely drifted off to sleep when it began, a steady tap-tap against the windows and eaves.

  “I’ll bet Aunt Celeste planned this, too,” Kate said as Ryan got up to open the windows. The sweet smell of April rain and flowers filled the room.

  If there was anything more romantic than being in bed with the man you loved on a rainy spring morning in Paris, she couldn’t think what it might be.

  “The deck’s definitely stacked in favor of romance.” He was standing by the window, looking down at the street traffic.

  “Come back to bed,” she murmured. “We just went to sleep a few minutes ago.”

  He bent down and placed a kiss against her temple and
she sighed happily. “Don’t worry,” he whispered as she drifted back into sleep. “I’ll be back in time for the wedding.”

  They didn’t need the Louvre or the Eiffel Tower or the Champs d’Elysee.

  Right now they had each other and that was everything.

  * * *

  KATE WOKE UP a little before eleven to an empty bed. It took a few seconds for her to remember that she wasn’t home in her New York bed; she was in Paris.

  With Ryan.

  She touched his pillow with the back of her hand. It was cool. That was odd. She hadn’t heard him get up.

  The shirt he had worn yesterday was tossed over the side chair. She reached for it and slipped it on. It still smelled of him and she shivered with something close to pure animal pleasure.

  The bathroom door was open, but there was no sign of him there or in the sitting room. A funny little tingle of apprehension began to snake itself around her spine, but she pushed it away. He was a man and men could only go two or three hours without food. Maybe he had gone out in search of an Egg McMuffin or, better still, freshly baked croissants from one of those incredible bakeries that had been around since the Revolution.

  She was about to go take a long hot shower when she decided to make sure the wedding portrait was safely tucked away, and she padded out to the foyer. The portrait had been neatly rewrapped and returned to the huge travel portfolio. His cell phone was on the floor near the escritoire but his bags were nowhere to be seen.

  Okay, she told herself as that uneasy tingle took hold again, this time with a vengeance. Every millennium or so, a man actually put his stuff away. Maybe this was one of those miracle moments. His cell probably fell out of his pocket when he bent down to stow his bags. She decided to play Nancy Drew for real this time and checked the foyer closet. It was empty. She ran back into the bedroom and checked the big double closet and it was empty too. There was nothing under the bed, hidden away behind the drapes or in the tub.

  He was gone.

  EPILOGUE

  The Wedding

  Milles Fleurs—the day before the wedding

  “IT ISN’T AS IF he ran away, chérie,” Aunt Celeste said as she pulled another Gauloise Blonde from her vintage Chanel purse. “He did leave you a note.”

  Kate waved the square of hotel stationery under her great-aunt’s nose. “‘Something cameup I’ll see you at Milles Fleurs in a fewdays don’t worry’ is n’t a note. It’s a telegram.”

  Her aunt flicked the wheel on her lighter then held the steady blue flame to the tip of her cigarette and inhaled three times in quick succession. “Wonderful flavor,” she said, exhaling. “Are you sure you wouldn’t care to try one?”

  “I quit smoking ten years ago. It’s a filthy habit. And don’t change the subject. If you know where he is and you’re not telling me—”

  Celeste threw back her head and emitted one of those throaty laughs that had brought men to their knees back in the day. “You give me far too much credit, chérie. Ryan is his own man and he is about his own business. Be patient. He won’t miss his daughter’s wedding. He gave Alexis his word.”

  Whatever he was up to, he had taken time to make sure Alexis wouldn’t worry. He had apparently dropped his bags off at Milles Fleurs and shared a long father-daughter breakfast with the bride-to-be. If Alexis was concerned about her father’s whereabouts, she certainly didn’t show it. She was happily navigating her way through the prewedding festivities without an apparent care in the world.

  Selfishly, it was more than the wedding that concerned Kate. They had shared something special that night in the hotel suite. They had opened their hearts to each other for the first time in many years. For a little while she had actually believed there was hope for them, that he still loved her and that maybe they could start all over again.

  The last thing she had expected was that he would run for his life.

  “He’ll come back,” Kate said. “Won’t he?”

  Celeste patted her hand. “Don’t be ridiculous. Of course he will.”

  “He said he’d be back in time for the wedding…at least I thought he did.” At this point that entire magical day and night in Paris seemed like a dream. She turned to her aunt. “Something happened, Aunt Celeste. We opened up to each other. We said things we’d never said before. I felt closer to Ryan than I have since we were teen-agers, and I refuse to believe he didn’t feel it, too.”

  “Then be patient,” her aunt counseled. “Trust your heart.”

  Wasn’t that how she got into this predicament in the first place?

  “What if something happened to him?” she persisted. “I mean, he took his bags but left his cell phone behind. He’s completely out of contact.”

  “I don’t have one of those horrid things, either, chérie, and I always find a way to stay in touch. He’s a grown man and quite resourceful. Enjoy the day before your daughter’s wedding. He’ll be back before you know it.” She took Kate’s hand in hers and squeezed. “I promise you this.”

  Who was Kate to argue? When it came to love, Aunt Celeste wrote the book. If Celeste said to trust her heart, then she would give it her best shot.

  But if there was no word from Ryan by dinner tonight, then, with apologies to her great-aunt, she would feel free to panic.

  One hour before the wedding

  * * *

  “HE’S ON HIS WAY, Mom.” Alexis, the picture of radiant loveliness in her bridal gown, handed Kate a tissue. “He borrowed the cab driver’s cell phone and called the inn.”

  Kate, who really hadn’t intended or expected to fall apart quite like this, blew her nose. “Where has he been? Why didn’t he call sooner? What happened? Is he okay?”

  “He’s fine.” Her little girl—wasn’t it yesterday she wore her hair in a ponytail and watched reruns of Little House on the Prairie?—gave her a hug. “It’s okay, Mom. Admit it—you can’t wait to see him again.”

  She looked at her daughter, glowing with love and joy, and knew she couldn’t lie to her. Not today. “You’re right, honey. I can’t wait.”

  Her emotions were in complete shambles. She swung from crazed worry to elation to almost murderous rage then back again. He had no business taking off like that on a moment’s notice. He had no business not phoning for days and worrying her to death. But he was alive and well and on his way to Milles Fleurs and at the moment that simple fact outweighed everything else.

  The bridesmaids burst into the side parlor room in an explosion of pale peach and spring-green silk and taffeta, bringing the scent of flowers and happiness with them. She had watched these girls all of their lives, celebrated their birthdays and graduations and first jobs. Those adorable little girls had grown up to be beautiful, accomplished young women who were gathered here today on the outskirts of the City of Light to celebrate Alexis and Gabe’s wedding. The fact that two of those beautiful young women were also her daughters pushed her right over the edge into another bout of sentimental tears.

  “This has to stop, Ma.” This time Taylor handed her some tissues.

  “Even waterproof mascara has its limits,” Shannon said as she adjusted the flowers pinned to her hair. “Better save some of its staying power for the ceremony.”

  “The heck with the ceremony,” Alexis said. “Just wait for the first dance. When she and Daddy take the floor—”

  “Did I hear my name?”

  Kate spun around to see Ryan standing in the doorway to the side parlor room. His daughters threw themselves into his arms. The other girls cheered. There seemed to be no broken bones, no gunshot wounds, no visible sign of injury or illness. Relief almost brought her to her knees, but plain old anger lifted her right back up again.

  At least now she could kill him with a clear conscience.

  The wedding coordinator, imported from New York, appeared in the doorway and motioned the bride and her attendants into the adjoining room for a final inspection before the ceremony, which was to take place in the garden underneath a large whit
e tent turned makeshift chapel.

  “Get yourselves ready, bride’s parents,” she said with a big smile. “It’s almost showtime.”

  “Showtime?” Ryan said after the woman disappeared into the other room.

  He looked exhausted, unsure of himself, clearly waiting for the laugh she couldn’t give to him.

  “Okay,” he said. “Here it is.” He met her eyes. “I was arrested.”

  She could feel the blood drain from her head. “You were what?”

  “Arrested. I flew back to New York. I thought I could get there and back in twenty-four, but I got arrested breaking into our old house.”

  “I have to sit down,” she said, perching on the straight-back chair in the corner of the tiny room. “For a second I thought you said you’d been arrested.”

  “I broke into the house and forgot about the silent alarm. The entire Levittown police force showed up when I was elbow-deep in your desk drawer.”

  She didn’t know whether to laugh, cry, or ask for a good stiff drink.

  “Remember Bernie Cowan?”

  “The lawyer on your softball team.”

  “I tracked him down on a fishing boat off Montauk Point. He’s the only reason I’m not still in the Nassau County jail.”

  “You have a set of keys. Why didn’t you use them?”

  “I left them in my bag.”

  “One of the bags you dropped off here at the inn?”

  “Bingo.”

  “And you couldn’t call because you left your cell phone in the hotel room.”

  “So that’s where it is.” The cell phone also functioned as his address book, phone book and appointment calendar. He was screwed without it.

  “Your cell isn’t the only phone on the planet.”

  “I’m forty-eight,” he said with a self-deprecating laugh. “I couldn’t remember the name of the damn place.” He moved closer to her, so close she could smell his skin. “You have a lot of questions, Katie, but you haven’t asked me the most important one.”